THE LAST…
First of all, I really hope this didn't come off as a hook and some bait. This is not the last blog post ever, I just couldn't think of a better title. You'll see as it goes on.
Now that we've put my mom's worries at ease, let's address the second issue:
Negative (N)ellie has felt really heavy this year, if I'm being honest.
I am truly sorry that you all have had to struggle along the ride with me, hearing me rework the same problems over and over and over again. I know that could not have been fun.
I do hope my lengthy complaints helped others to know they are not alone, though. That we all struggle. That sometimes Heaven feels silent. That hanging on is enough.
I am so incredibly grateful for the kind hearts that have touched mine over the past twelve months. The words of support, encouragement, and scripture have meant more than any of you could ever know.
Which, is why I think you deserve to know: I am doing so much better.
Turns out, following the promptings of the Spirit, forcing yourself up to the pulpit at church, and sobbing your way through a testimony creates incredible stitches in your heart.
I think it's kind of the same concept of when I finally faced my heartbreak publicly. Speaking of how I felt allowed me to truly let everything go.
And, of course, with massive amounts of help from the Lord.
What I am trying to say is that I think things are going to be a bit more positive around here. And I am so grateful for it.
To introduce this new season of my life, I felt a fun blog post was in order. Something to set the stage for my new outlook on life.
As such, I present to you: THE LAST...
Below are listed some of the LAST things I've done over recent weeks. Some are hilarious, some are recommendations, and some are heartwarming. All have helped me, and I hope they do the same for you.
THE LAST BOOK I READ IN A DAY:
I rarely do this. Rarely. I've been in favor of savoring things my entire life. But I could not put Somebody to Lean On by Jess Mastorakos down! Sweet, clean, and swoony. She has quickly become one of my new favorite authors.
THE LAST SCRIPTURE THAT SPOKE TO ME:
"Wherefore, be of good cheer, and do not fear, for I the Lord am with you, and will stand by you; and ye shall bear record of me, even Jesus Christ, that I am the Son of the living God, that I was, that I am, and that I am to come."
THE LAST BOOK I WANTED TO THROW AGAINST THE WALL:
Stellarlune by Shannon Messenger. I am verrrrrryyyy late to the game in the last Keepers book, and it did not disappoint. The cliffhanger of all cliffhangers? The love triangle? All evidences of the desires to chuck it. (In a loving way.)
THE LAST TIME I LAUGHED OUT LOUD:
This one is a cheater, and has two.
One: The Ghostrunners Podcast. They make me laugh out loud literally every week, but the game, "Tune Up" on episode 240 killed me. Made dusting this NM home so much more fun.
Two: After the complete humiliation of crying my eyes out in front of my entire church congregation, one of my sweet Primary children came up to me, and just asked, "What happened?" 😂😂
THE LAST THING THAT IMPACTED ME:
The movie, The Sound of Freedom. The film is heavy, but so, so good. Please, if you have the chance, go watch it. For more information on how to aid in the fight against Child Trafficking, a cause that is now near and dear to my heart, please visit Operation Underground Railroad.
THE LAST TIME I FELT LOVED:
There are actually a bunch of these, but when a Primary Child hugged my leg and wouldn't let go? And then shared his candy with me? That one really takes the cake.
THE LAST TIME I FELT THE LOVE OF GOD:
Again, there are so many of these. Stolen words in the hallway at church. Messages of encouragement whispered in my ear, or sent in a text. And of course, conversations with my mother. If her sole job on this earth is to help me, I can guarantee you, she is nailing it.
THE LAST NEW THING I TRIED:
Online dating. I am not cut out for this 😂
But, I showed the Lord I was putting in effort, at least for a month 😂
THE LAST TIME I FELT PROUD:
The many, many times the Lord has helped me to fight against my perfectionism.
THE LAST SONG I PLAYED ON REPEAT:
"Swing, Swing" - The All-American Rejects. Middle school, I have missed you.
THE LAST SHOW I BINGED:
Gilmore Girls, again 😁
Well, I hope you found some inspiration in my, "LASTS". This was so fun, and I pray you can feel the changes my Savior has made in me through the words and the experiences I shared. I know I can.
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